fatification by Rainah Miqueli
Fatification
serve me
inna my rituals
i like to be seen and not seen simultaneously
i like to be a boy and a girl, never
at the same time, constant.
i can make underneath change too
depending onna the circumstances.
i can grow out this boy body and feel you
synthetic, yes —
but what ain’t factory grown?
watch me go back to
my assigned assassination
watch me be
inverted
subverted
and controlled
but if ye be a good one, at my inversion
i still be the one
who be ruling.
this body marked by
fat
thick round belly,
heavy everywhere
inna this here migration
found fetishizers
easy,
we sought each
other
d e v o t i o n
i grew bored of
v e n e r a t i o n
became lost inna
sea of objectification.
me, them, her, him, me
ye’all never saw
how that brought
down
the human inna me.
fed by mouths of creators
i spent some time inna line
shrieking disguise after
disguise
met with gaping mouths,
denial.
Words by Rainah Miqueli | IG @queensizedsun | @floatingbridgepress
Rainah Miqueli is a poet and burlesque performer known for her sensual and rhythmic exploration of healing and trauma. Diagnosed with a vision disorder that made long-form writing difficult, Rainah turned to poetry as a way to express themselves and began a journey of self-discovery and self-acceptance. As an autistic fat queer person, she brings a unique perspective to her work, weaving together themes of resilience and self-acceptance.
With an MFA from Dublin, Rainah is deeply influenced by the musicality and rhythm of the language there. Through poetry and erotica, Rainah explores the complexities of fatphobia, gender/body phorias, trauma, and intimacy. Writing about fat sensuality has been a particularly empowering experience for Rainah, who has found love and adoration for her own body through their creative work.
Rainah lives in the PNW with her handsome spouse and two cats, Oisin and Oscar.
Illustration by Tessy Savary | @tessy_savary