fatification by Rainah Miqueli

Fatification

serve me

inna my rituals

i like to be seen and not seen simultaneously

i like to be a boy and a girl, never

at the same time, constant.

i can make underneath change too

depending onna the circumstances.

i can grow out this boy body and feel you

synthetic, yes —

but what ain’t factory grown?

watch me go back to

my assigned assassination

watch me be

inverted

subverted

and controlled

but if ye be a good one, at my inversion

i still be the one

who be ruling.

this body marked by

fat

thick round belly,

heavy everywhere

inna this here migration

found fetishizers

easy,

we sought each

other

d e v o t i o n

i grew bored of

v e n e r a t i o n

became lost inna

sea of objectification.

me, them, her, him, me

ye’all never saw

how that brought

down

the human inna me.

fed by mouths of creators

i spent some time inna line

shrieking disguise after

disguise

met with gaping mouths,

denial.

Words by Rainah Miqueli | IG @queensizedsun | @floatingbridgepress

Rainah Miqueli is a poet and burlesque performer known for her sensual and rhythmic exploration of healing and trauma. Diagnosed with a vision disorder that made long-form writing difficult, Rainah turned to poetry as a way to express themselves and began a journey of self-discovery and self-acceptance. As an autistic fat queer person, she brings a unique perspective to her work, weaving together themes of resilience and self-acceptance. 

With an MFA from Dublin, Rainah is deeply influenced by the musicality and rhythm of the language there. Through poetry and erotica, Rainah explores the complexities of fatphobia, gender/body phorias, trauma, and intimacy. Writing about fat sensuality has been a particularly empowering experience for Rainah, who has found love and adoration for her own body through their creative work. 

Rainah lives in the PNW with her handsome spouse and two cats, Oisin and Oscar.

Illustration by Tessy Savary | @tessy_savary